Album · 2021
after i – x
Released
2021
Tracks
87
Runtime
548 min
Genre
ambient
Tracklist
1
this is after
after i – x
9:24
2
it pulls you close, takes you in
after i – x
5:18
3
you and your ghost
after i – x
7:14
4
no longer of ash, nor of the dark
after i – x
6:36
5
not of the light, and pulled apart
after i – x
6:15
6
now of the deep
after i – x
9:03
7
you are once more, truly connected
after i – x
6:04
8
right to your core
after i – x
6:44
9
your void – your energy
after i – x
6:37
10
oh beauty. myself, can i be
after i – x
8:27
11
here in this nothing – this empty space
after i – x
3:30
12
no body, no soul – i have no face
after i – x
7:00
13
what’s left of me now that all has gone
after i – x
11:29
14
every last piece of me – how must i go on
after i – x
7:15
15
hollow. a shell of doubt, my dear
after i – x
5:05
16
i still have feelings, memories and fears
after i – x
8:30
17
your body
after i – x
4:46
18
its vast
after i – x
6:00
19
neverending
after i – x
5:50
20
at last
after i – x
8:44
21
i made it this far
after i – x
6:26
22
still here
after i – x
6:44
23
as much as i can be
after i – x
5:04
24
all this seems for nothing
after i – x
6:00
25
is this truly neverending
after i – x
8:30
26
the deep
after i – x
6:30
27
i used to see you
after i – x
4:50
28
in my sleep
after i – x
5:07
29
dreamt of your caves
after i – x
2:22
30
dark, rigid
after i – x
4:29
31
and steep
after i – x
4:28
32
taking me
after i – x
7:56
33
swallowing me whole
after i – x
3:56
34
keeping me from being
after i – x
4:15
35
ever so consoled
after i – x
6:20
36
you exist here
after i – x
7:16
37
brought me from the dust and then
after i – x
5:37
38
gave me what i needed
after i – x
5:41
39
time to mend
after i – x
3:58
40
and built on what i’d created before
after i – x
5:29
41
now with new vision, walls and a door
after i – x
6:11
42
i finally left the old me behind
after i – x
4:11
43
that’s where you’ll stay
after i – x
3:57
44
there, tied up and confined
after i – x
7:36
45
so this is what dying and being born again feels like
after i – x
3:12
46
rebirthed, finally living. so full of new life
after i – x
6:36
47
it eventually and finally came to a head
after i – x
5:36
48
for the longest time thought id be alone when im dead
after i – x
7:06
49
i have this new self that i built in my mind
after i – x
7:10
50
brought everything i thought that id need to leave behind
after i – x
6:04
51
packaged it up neat and tidy – stacked it over there
after i – x
6:00
52
i know where to go now, not alone and not scared
after i – x
5:12
53
this is my body, my voice and my soul
after i – x
2:34
54
i am truly, finally and forever whole
after i – x
5:22
55
i love your colours, your fibers, your strands
after i – x
6:16
56
i can now pickup all these pieces with my own two hands
after i – x
8:05
57
place them so delicately together it seems
after i – x
5:39
58
i’m strong now more then ever – things only of dreams
after i – x
6:03
59
my ashes now sit at the base of what i am
after i – x
5:32
60
i’ve become a rock – the brightest of gems
after i – x
10:40
61
although it took forever, and ever and a day
after i – x
6:39
62
i’ll never go back there – i now know the way
after i – x
8:58
63
this path that i am on – not the same as once was
after i – x
4:56
64
now not even thinking about the details because
after i – x
12:54
65
my focus is further ahead in the distance
after i – x
4:10
66
now all i am thinking on is being consistent
after i – x
8:52
67
i’ll stay the course, not stray like the past
after i – x
5:22
68
keep it steady now, as i tread into your vast
after i – x
4:58
69
wide open spaces, i now have the tools
after i – x
7:19
70
to battle anything – show me your rules
after i – x
6:09
71
something from nothing
after i – x
5:40
72
is what i’ve created
after i – x
6:36
73
alone - just me.
after i – x
6:16
74
it will never be faded
after i – x
6:40
75
bright and glowing
after i – x
7:38
76
and everything about
after i – x
7:39
77
i’ll say this forever
after i – x
5:02
78
but not say – i’ll shout
after i – x
4:36
79
i’ve found my self. my body – my name
after i – x
4:20
80
amidst this elaborate and truly horrific game
after i – x
5:32
81
was it all just to teach me that i have the strength
after i – x
6:24
82
was it all floating out there for me just to take
after i – x
5:30
83
my colours so bright, soul so alive
after i – x
5:58
84
finally i now see what i have deep inside
after i – x
7:12
85
if this is the place that i must reside
after i – x
6:38
86
then i am content with it - doesn’t matter where – no longer must i hide
after i – x
3:26
87
i am.
after i – x
13:05